Zee weekend

I'm coming to the end of the first semester at uni which means exams but lucky for me I only have one which I've already done! However, this means I have loads of free time to kill which means loads of thinking, getting paranoid and getting lonely. I figured, why not start a blog to free my thoughts from my mind and so that's what I'm doing!

So I went home this weekend which was brilliant! My older brother was home and from uni too and who I haven't seen in around two months so it was really great to catch up with him and enjoying our usual crazy sibling banter. 

However, the first night at home wasn't exactly pleasant.. I ended up getting into a very heated argument with my dad where we both got extremely angry at each other and resulted in him walking out the room and me crying in front of my mum and brother. And was all over a stupid Christmas present I've asked for! Anyway, my brother came and talked to me where I broke down and starting going on about how insecure and self conscious I am about everything from my weight, my personality, my happiness, just everything basically! Me and my brother are extremely close so he soon gave me a lecture on how I should feel privileged to have a body like mine because I apparently have an "hourglass" figure which all of his girl friends would dream of having. I dunno, maybe I have that body shape but it doesn't make me feel any better about the way I look but all in all him saying that made me feel a lot better because who doesn't like compliments?

I was also talking about having zero motivation when I'm at uni. I never revise or do exercise or anything! I just sit and watch stuff on Netflix or catch-up TV. SO he gave me a lecture on how to be constructive with my free time. He told me to set myself targets for revising (e.g. 2 hours a day) which seems reasonable to me. He said to sign up to Pure Gym because exercise releases endorphins and increases your metabolism which would make me happier and fitter! He also discussed finding hobbies to keep me busy such as drawing, cooking, walking etc. I'm so glad he lectured me because this week I've started my healthy eating regime to make me feel better about my body and to improve my mood because good food = good mood. I also sat down for the first time all semester and did some proper revision which means I wont feel guilty for not doing any when I go to bed tonight yay! I've not yet signed up to the gym but I did go for  a rather long walk with my friend which was great because not only was I doing exercise but was getting to have a good gossip and chit-chat. Overall, this day has been a pretty good one!

I really owe my big bro a thank you for making me feel better about things and improving my motivation!!

looby-loo x