Because you had a bad day..

I had a really bad start to the day today. I was feeling a little down about certain things and I mentioned it to my friend and she offered good advise but it wasn't the advice I was seeking really. I came back from my lecture and thought I'd go on YouTube and watch some of my favourite videos by my favourite vlog/bloggers (not sure which term to use) because I thought it might help me. The videos I chose to watch were ones that would make me feel better about the way I was feeling. Those videos are great but I think I just wasn't in the right frame of mind to even focus on what they were saying.

I really wasn't feeling well at this point and almost felt sick, even though I knew I wouldn't be (if that makes sense). Anyway, I went to lie down for a nap, and I think I slept for maybe 10-15 minutes. When I woke up I just kind of starred at the wall and started thinking. I had all these thoughts bouncing around in my mind. It got to a point where I started to cry, then I started to panic. I don't know why I was panicking. It was really bad. My heart was pounding, my hands were shaking really badly. I felt trapped. I didn't know what was going on and I didn't know what to do. I soon decided that I had to message my friend Claire. She was the only one who I knew would understand. And I was so glad I did! She really helped me to calm down which through messaging is amazing (I would have called her but I don't get service in my halls at uni unless I hang out the window). After I calmed down, I realised I had to focus on something to keep me distracted from thinking too much so I did some revision and tidied my room.

Later on, Claire and I FaceTimed. It was brilliant because it meant I could tell her the full story about why I was feeling down and it allowed me to hear her point of view on things. It really helped me feel better and I feel more positive about things. I still don't feel 100% better but I'm definitely happier than I was earlier today. I'm just so thankful to have a friend like Claire. We spoke for over an hour about everything and then just chatted about general stuff. I honestly don't no what would have happened today if it wasn't for her. I'd probably be sitting in the corner still crying my eyes out haha! Aw, I'm just so grateful for her. <3


looby-loo x