I'm fine.

I was scrolling through tumblr and I came across this picture:

As I was about to reblog it, the picture just hit me. It made think about how much I say that not only in respond to the usual "How are you?" but to myself.
Now, just for the record, I am an extremely bad liar. I just laugh. I get nervous and giggle or laugh when I'm trying to lie. Even if I'm telling the truth, people think I'm lying because I'm laughing. It's just a nervous laughter I guess.

However, this picture made me realise that I can lie and I do it on a daily basis. I tell people "I'm fine" whenever they ask me how I am. And most of the time I'm not. I'm so used to saying it that it has become almost a natural lie. I even change the tone in which I say it to ensure people are convinced its true.

I just found it all quite strange because I've never thought of it as a lie before. I thought about the reasons for why I say it so often and I came to the conclusion that its because I want to believe it. One day, I want to say and actually mean it and for it not to be a lie but the truth.

looby-loo x