Rough Patch.

I basically screw everything up. Ok, maybe not everything but I do with a lot of things.

1. I hate my body so I constantly pick at things to try and make it look better, even though it never does. It just stays the same ugly way. I have spots, which I pick, which leave scars, which means I have to buy special moisturisers/creams to fix the scarring. arrgh why do I do these things?

2. I screw up my education. I have exams in two weeks and I haven't studied enough to even pass them. Why did I not start studying earlier?!

3. I've screwed up my now non-existent 'love' life. I wasn't in love but you get what I mean. Confidence level = rock bottom.

4. I feel like I'm a bad friend. I kind of bitched about one of my best friends the other day and I don't know why because I love her so much. I rarely bitch about people and when I do it is never about someone I'm close to like her. I feel so guilty about it now. It was about something so stupid, its ridiculous.

5. All I do at the moment is moan about everything going on in my life. It must sound so depressing. I don't mean it to be. I just need something to boost my confidence levels up a little and things should get better.

fuck, this all sounds so bloody depressing! But if I didn't write this stuff down then my mind would explode. I need to get a grip sometimes haha! My life isn't all that bad! I guess this is just a little rough patch at the moment.


looby-loo x